woah tumblr is changed a lil.

it is 9:49pm and I’m sitting in bed studying on this lovely night. i have the windows up because it was too dang hot! but i sprayed the windows to keep the bugs at bay. it feels and smells like a summer night. i hear cars passing by with their music blasting. i kinda wanna be fifteen again. so weird that im gonna be 21 in less than 3 months. i wish i could just jump in the pool right now and daze off to music (I wanna say Drake lol) with my friends’ laughters in the background. athens, you make me feel like im so alone. if i could just do whatever i wanted right now! if only, if onlyy… but im not. cuz i wont.

i feel like a boy. i never wanted my hair to be long again like now. i want it to just freaking grow out already. i look so much more like a girl with long hair. and i like being a girl.