i dont even use tumblr.. except when i want to just write something. writing things out can be soothing. just to lay all your thoughts down. i want a different blog. i think im going to get wordpress or something. no mo tumblr. 

my last thought.

the most difficult thing for me is.. just. not being enough. to be the older sister to my three younger siblings they deserve. to be a good & helpful daughter. to be a selfless & supportive girlfriend. to be a loving friend. to be an encouraging sister in christ. to be a full-time student with a part-time job. all the while trying to be cautious with my every move with hawks’ eyes just preying over me. and being aware of whats going on but i just have to sit and watch. and it’s as if someone is always left feeling neglected/hurt/burnt out because i cant be super-Bo. i wish i could do it all. im so. so. SO. tired of feeling guilty in whatever i do. i so want to do everything whole-heartedly. but everything is pulling me apart in a million directions, how can i? im doing one thing and 3 other things yell my name to be attended to. i guess this just means i need more breather’s with jesus. but still. thank You God. for all that you have provided. and the joy above all. and i know im enough in your eyes

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  1. andyrewhan said: stop believing the lies that the devil and your flesh tell you.”It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.” Galatians 5:1 God gives desires in you to pursue, go:)
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